My Body Was Tired, So I Had To Leave

I’m amazed when I think about the friendship we shared together. It felt like Bonnie and Clyde without the crime, a ride or die relationship. And even though God spoke to me and told me that 2016 would be your last year here on earth, and gave me much time to prepare for your departure from this life. I still was not prepared. I watched your pain and suffering as if it was my very own on many of occasions. There was nothing we didn’t share verbally one to another, my friend. But I truly understand that your body got tired. And I couldn’t no longer keep you here for my benefit, making you stay with so much pain in your body.

So, you decided to consult with God, and into his hands you committed your Spirit. So, my peace of missing you has it’s moments in time. I watch you truly suffer much affliction and distress in your physical body as the doctor cut off one leg on the other side, and one foot on the other, and now your are at rest.

And even though it’s been two years and two months, it seems like only yesterday you departed this earth. My peace I brought to you and my peace I left with you. 

Much love my BFF L. Parker. I smile because I envision you walking around Heaven in your white robe, protecting me from above.

Blue Jay Sits In Stillness

You may say, “I have not called on Blue Jay”. However, you may have asked God or Great Spirit to show you what is next in your life, what is holding you back, or what your next step is. Blue Jay wears the colour blue and the little blue crest (cap) as part of his messenger duties from Great Spirit. Blue Jays do not have naturally blue feathers. Rather, their blue colouring is from light refraction on their feathers. When Blue Jay feathers are removed from the bird, they turn darkish as the light refraction no longer works.

Cited: https://angelsandancestors.blogspot.com/2008/08/spirit-animal-blue-jay.html

My blue jay came to me to give me a positive message of hope and inspiration to keep moving forward in the face of adversities. My friend Spirit come to visit me from time to time. I love knowing they always show up right on time. My sweet blue Jay!

 

Breathing Your Last Breath

I remember the last day all so well. I turned the steering wheel to the right as I entered into the parking lot of the hospital where your body laid. I proceeded to enter onto what I would call “Holy grounds.” I walked with grace into the Emergency Room entrance, I proceeded down the hallway to the elevators of the main lobby. I remember standing in the lobby, while pressing the button to reach your room floor. But all the while standing in the elevator, my cell phone would strangely get a signal to ring, the work of thaumaturge. My cell phone is normally unlikely to get a reception in an elevator, or it loses its signal all together, but not on this day, June 3, 2016 which feels like only yesterday to me, your Spirit drifted away while I was standing in the elevator. Your Spirit felt my spiritual presence in the elevator of the hospital as you took your final breath. My soul honored your soul as your physical body laid in the hospital bed in a state of eternal rest. In that moment, you gave me confirmation that you knew I made it back as I promised to say goodbye in irenic. Then, you breathe your last breath.

Love Serving Selflessly

All the while, I was assigned with the task by God to help others to process their own grief, pain and loss of their love ones. Only this time, it would be me standing in the very same position as many others I helped over the years to cope with the loss of their love ones in the here and now situation. I can attest, its very painful to lose a love one, someone you have loved day in and day out over the years, selflessly. However, preparing others as to how to cope with their love one’s transition to the afterlife is a spiritual work in progress. There’s never a day that goes by that you’re always in the cycle of helping others; learning to be their strength. So, they can lean on you to weep, and morn. A job that serves a great deed in my eyes, a great strength that surpasses all understanding.

 

God’s Love Lifted Me

The very day I promised to come back to release your Spirit with a proper goodbye before your body became increasingly weaker than the day before. As sure as my body was logy from a long day of hard work while reclining on my loveseat at home in my living room. Then, my cell phone would ring only to speak volumes to your final hours here on earth before you would take your last breath. Your Spirit visited my every heartbeat as I laid limp, but God’s love lifted me with compathy. So, I could travel that long road to the hospital to release your restless soul.

Spiritually Hold On

My dear friend, I remember promising you that I would be back to the hospital. As I lean closer to you while you drifted in and out of consciousness. I whispered in your ear in a soft-spoken voice, promising you that I would be back to the hospital to say my final goodbyes, just so I could hold onto your Spirit just a little while longer.